YES! It has not been too long this time since I last posted. Two things - one is new for "me" and the other is a craft I like doing. First... I have been crocheting like crazy. It is my relaxer. I have noticed since chemo, that what I would call doing normal stuff (organizing/straightening rooms, going thru the mail, etc.), sometimes over taxes my brain and gives me an anxiety attack. Usually a small one, so I have found crocheting helps relax me or a few minutes of playing Minecraft on the Xbox 360. Not sure how playing Minecraft works to help me but it does. Maybe because it make me concentrate on one thing. Hmm?? Not sure. Projects I have started, working on and possibly finished in the last year are: two different sizes of Dr. Who scarves. They turned out different (in length) as I was going by a knitting pattern and was not sure how many crochet rows would equal one knitted row, so I tried out two different ways. One, the shorter version, I gave to one of my daughter's. The second one, which was closer to the original knitted one in size, I gave to one of my son's and it worked out great as he is 6ft 4 in in height. I crocheted a bunny for a grandson for his birthday. It turned out really cute. I made some crochet topped towels and I finished a beautiful 2 strand gorgeous red throw for myself. I have a "retro circle" blanket in the making for a Christmas gift next year. I just finished a cowl ( using this pattern: http://crochetincolor.blogspot.com/2011/10/soft-stitch-cowl-pattern.html) and started another one tonight. Second... I have been a little more gutsy with my hair since I got it back. It took me a while to decide it I want to just let what grows back stay or do I change the color and get rid of the "gray" high lights. Before I lost my hair I may have dyed it 3 times through out my 49 years. My hair was always long from my shoulders and down, but since I lost it, I like the shorter hair. It is hard not to let it grow and get back to the "comfort" zone. Not for now. This past week I went and had my hair dyed. I even did high lights and not the natural ones either. It looks great and it is such a pick-me-upper! Why haven't I done this before? So... there are two questions for you tonight. What do you do to relax? and Do you like to stay all natural or dye it?

Life

Life! It just has a way of getting in the way of all the different ways we want to go doesn't it? I have been busy with Life since my last post but then I have also been lazy. With all the time I am on my computer, I had forgotten all about my lonely little blog here. Poor thing. This week opened doors and windows for my darling hubbie and I to talk. We found out that our dear neighbor across the street was diagnosed with cancer and it is not good. Cancer never is. When my hubbie and I found it out, we were reminded of all we went through in 2011 and how to me it was all a blur. My blur started, when I got a phone call from the doctor's office a few days after surgery, that the doctor wanted to see me the next morning. That he told me that I have cancer. From there it was - you need to drink this to have this test, then to drink this other stuff to have another test, then to have a surgery again and then on to chemo and then on to another surgery and wow, where did the year go. It was a blur. The following year (2012) was a year of catching up on all those feelings that my life wouldn't let me or didn't want me to experience the previous year. Sometimes they would hit me out of the blue and sometimes it would be someone mentioning something. Sometimes it was driving by the doctor's office or the hospital on our way to somewhere else. Life, it just has a way of tossing, throwing and knocking you around. You either go with the flow and deal with it the best way you can or you give up. I think I did give up for a while. BUT.... I am done with that and ready to move on! I picked up a job application today and I am feeling more centered in who I am. Yes, I still have a day here or there, and everyone does, I am just glad that I am ready to have more good days than bad. I am tired of the chemo brain and am ready to fight back. Hey, it is MY Life and I am going to live it MY way. I know 2014 is going to be a great year and I am going to get a head start on it. How is next year looking for you?